SEEMS DEAD

HADNOT BEEN BLOGGING VERY OFTEN.

WORK IS BUSY.

JUST TO TYPE A FEW WORDS TO MAKE IT MORE LIVELY.

:)

A SPECIAL DAY TO US

its a very memorable day for the both of us.

when both strangers turn into friends and into a couple.

time just pass by so quickly.

with happy sad quarrelsome days.

the very first year that we gone through.

and theres more years counting on.

3010

BORED

work was so bored today.

sitting there almost the whole day.

getting myself to the job scope.

but are all easy task.

everyone is so busy with their stuffs as its the month end.

tomorrow promise is

to let me do more things.

is so bored and time pass so slowly when there is nothing to do.

HAPPY SHOPPING.

HAD A GREAT TIME SHOPPING.

had our lunch at ION sho teppan.

individual hotpot.

sweet base soup with fresh beef and pork slices.

B bought two polo tees in G2000.

Colour and fit suit him to a T.

bought a bottom skirt in bugis street.

B bought me a bag as a gift for my new job :)

dine in ajisen.

B bought something special to fix. ♥

TOUCHING

B introduced this movie to watch and made online reservation.

collected our tickets and had snacks before the show starts.

i strongly recommend this moive.

its a warm and touching show.

it was hilarious at the start and touching at the back.

i tried holding back my tears but its so difficult.

B was shocked when i asked him to pass me tissues.

i was weeping away from the scenes.

1 YEAR

its been one year.

15 OCT 08

Mcron Low

you will always be remembered.

In Loving Memory

THANKS

thanks, friends for standing by me.

i need to have my patience double up.

sometimes i feels its really good to have friends around,

rather than keeping all the troubles by myself.

feels much better after throwing all the torment out.

and i dont need lecture from someone who is the same as me.

so please take care of yourself and dont go around boasting around your things.

THIS IS THE WORST TIME OF MY LIFE

ENDLESS PROBLEMS

IM AT A LOST END NOW.

SIMPLY IN A DAZE.

INTERVIEWS, INTERVIEWS AND ENDLESS INTERVIEWS.

I DID MY BEST.

SHOW MY CONFIDENCE AND MY COMMUNICATIONS SKILLS.

BUT WHEN I HAVE TO ELABORATE WHY DID I LEFT MY PREVIOUS COMPANY.

EVERYONE SEEMS TO STUN ME OFF.

GASTRO PROBLEMS.

BUT IM FINE AND FIT TO WORK NOW.

EVERYONE NEEDS SOMEONE HEALTHY TO WORK.

BUT SOMEONE WHO GOES THROUGHT THE TOMENT AND RECOVER

COULDNT BE GIVEN A CHANCE TO SHOW THEIR ABILITIES.

I HAVE NO CONFIDENCE AT ALL NOW.

RESTRICTING MYSELF TO LOTS OF FOOD TO BE BETTER

AND THIS IS THE OUTCOME.

VEXED

PROBLEMS DOESNT SEEMS TO SOLVE BETWEEN US.

I DONT KNOW WHAT I REALLY SHOULD DO NOW.

FEEL TANGLED IN A KNOT.

IF I WERE TO CHOOSE, I DOESNT WANT TO BE IN THIS SITUATION.

WE BOTH DOESNT UNDERSTAND WHAT EACH WANTS AND NEEDS.

I JUST NEED SOMETHING REALLY SIMPLE.

MAKING ME SMILE THROUGHOUT THE DAY OUT WITH ANY SPENDING.

JUST AS SIMPLE.

AND I ONLY GOT MISERY.

BY THINKING WHAT TO DO FOR YOU INSTEAD.

I HAVE DONE EVERYTHING I CAN.

THATS THE LIMIT I CAN DO.

WHEN I NEED A RANTING EARS, YOU ARE ALWAYS NOT THERE.

WHEN IM RANTING MY PROBLEMS YOU WILL ONLY HEAR 1/3 OF IT.

THINGS YOU DID FOR ME, YOU HATE IT SO MUCH.

ACCEDING TO MY REQUEST EVERYTIME WHICH YOU DONT LIKE AT ALL.

CARVED MY SHORTCOMING IN YOUR HEART.

WHATEVER OR WHENEVER WHAT HAPPEN YOU WILL THINK OF THAT.

I HAVE NOTHING TO SAY THEN.

HEART BROKEN INTO TINY PIECES

swollen eyes which results to too much crying.

i tried my best to stop my tears from flowing down.

it seems so difficult.

is something so simple.

yet you chose to do something which i dont like.

you may have your character.

but i do have my pride too.

my heart is really broken into tiny pieces.

i dont know what else to do.

im stuck.

with no directions.

its part and parcels in my life.

i had to go through it even through how many times it hits.

UTTERLY DISAPPOINTMENT!

I HAD ENOUGH OF ALL THE NONSENSE.

IM FUCKING IN A BAD MOOD THESE FEW DAYS.

AND I JUST WANT TO HAVE A NICE WEEKEND.

THINGS OFTEN GOES THE OTHER WAY ROUND.

I HAD BEEN TOLERATING WITH ALL THE MIGHT I CAN.

BUT NOW IT SEEMS LIKE I HAVE LET IT ALL OUT.

I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE.

EYES BEEN SWOLLEN OF ALL THE CRYING.

MIND JUST FUCKING CANT CALM DOWN.

WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO TO DERSERVE ALL THESE SHIT?

I JUST DONT UNDERSTAND.

AM I THE ONLY WITH THE PROBLEM?

I WANT MY LIFE BACK AS BEFORE.

FLU DAYS ARE BACK

IM SICK.

down with flu and sore throat, headache too.

had been busy these few days.

meet up with Baby on the long weekend.

went to two interviews yesterday.

one called back for 2nd interview tomorrow.

hope i wont screw up.

if im selected for the job,

im afraid i have lesser time for

MY FAMILY, BABY AND FRIENDS.

but i have no other choices.

working now supporting myself is the main issue.

wish me good luck. :)

INDULGE

movie : I LOVE YOU, BETH COOPER.

Soup Restaurant for dinner. :0

Chit-chatting and Ranting Session

Baby bought me nail polishes. :)

Baby came over to lunch with me.

Loves.

I TOTALLY INDULGE MYSELF INTO EATING.

I ENJOY MYSELF THESE FEW DAYS.

NOW BABY IS BACK TO CAMP.

BUT THERE WILL BE MORE WHEN YOU ARE OUT.

:)

and NOT FORGETTING THE SUBWAY COOKIES FROM YOU.

:O

ENJOYS!

yesterday we trained down to town.

intially B wanted to have Sakura.

but i insisted not having that.

so we had an agreement.

we went to check on the movie listings.

if there is available slots, we will go ahead with it and have others for dinner.

B bought donuts, tiramisu and mango.

mango is nice. :)

in the end we couldnt get any.

we went back to queue for Sakura.

we didnt get to have that as the earliest we can get is 8pm.

we decided to give it a miss and make reservation beforehand. :)

we settled our dinner at Heeren Waruku.

shopped around.

and we went to burberry.

the bag is nice.

we made our way to shaw house.

make a trip there to the optical shop but is closed.

B had subway for supper.

subway club meal. :)

its a food feast with B. <3

enjoyable day. :)

090909 & 100909

090909

MR LIN ZI HAN POP DAY.

100909

Outing with B.

happened to realise we were wearing the same colour tone.
black top, grey bottom, white shoes.

had dinner in sukiya.

strolled down to boat quay.

clarke quay.

i enjoyed my day.

♥

TOTALLY DRAINED

had not been sleeping well these days.

stress has overcome me once again.

i just need simple understanding.

and it seems so difficult.

i tried but to no avail.

i had no other choices but to leave things this way.

im not avoiding.

im just waiting for the chance.

ENJOYED

wanted B to rest and sleep after hours of road march in the night.

but insisted that we should meet every week.

compromise on both sides.

we met.

steamboating with both his sisters.

window shopping.

ranting time for both.

bid goodbye with a seal of kiss.

ends the day on the phone saying good night.

I ENJOYED MYSELF.

ILY.

BACK ENDS

TUES: made pasta. for dinner.

ingredients. (some are not taken.) :)

serving. although is not appealing but its tastes good. :)

feels like having subway now. :)

RANDOM :)

had been so lazy to update.

to type in details.

:)

sat: pasir ris, tampines, changi, pasir ris, ang mo kio.

sun: defu lane, pasir ris, yew tee, ang mo kio.

last day of the month.

rainy day.

moody mood.

HELPLESS!

IM REALLY USELESS!

I CANT HELP B AT ALL!

REALLY HELPLESS!

CANT BE BY HIS SIDE!

THE ONLY THING I COULD NOW IS CHEER HIM ON USING TEXTS!

ROOTING FOR HIM!

SENDING TEXTS AND MMS TO HELP HIM ENDURE THIS WEEK.

THATS THE LEAST I COULD DO!

I BELIEVE HE CAN DO IT!