terrible gastric ever.

having terrible gastric ever. is so freaking painful. cant really endure with the pain anymore. wish i can open up and take away the pain.

GASTRIC GET AWAY FROM ME!

yesterday, went bishan with sis. the first thing i did was went into G2000. i saw a pink label dress on the manequin placed at the front of the glass panel. i went to look at the display piece. although its a simple cut dress and it caught my attention. i was thinking of getting it straight away as sis said its kinda troublesome to bring the dress walking here and there as we were there for lunch buffet at sakae. went dining in sakae, didnt really ate much though. was there chatting instead of eating. went off after an hour. went back to G2ooo for the dress. the price was $89. it was quite expensive. went to try it on, the size i wanted had no more stocks. took a size bigger instead. walked around and went indulging my darling. half way through received eva call, after i hung up i saw my elbow had drops of stains like soya sauce. it was so gross. i was screaming and wailing there. luckily there isnt many people. sis wiped it off while i checked my shirt and bag. the most frustrated part was the drops stained my hair and shirt too. it was so sticky and had dripped out of nowhere. trained back to amk meet up with eva. walked around and had our darlings. it was a nice one. bused home.

woke up at 6.15am went for morning jog. have been a long time since i went for a jog after the incident. had two rounds, i felt kinda out of breath and running out of stamina. is it the cause of indulging too much of drinks and darling? i think it should be the case. took a nap after washing up. after waking up from two hours of sleep, having terrible headache and gastric. HOW CAN I GO OUT IN THIS STATE? supposed to go to two invites. the only thing i can do now is STAY AT HOME AND ROT! SORRY JIAWEI AND JUNWEI!

feeling kinda down at this point writing this post. past memories flashed through my mind. keep suppressing myself not to think anything about it, but somehow i could not do it. i wished to bury the happy memories deep in my heart, but i still cant really bring myself to do it. why is there so many ups and down since 2008 started? nothing seems to be going smoothly for me! i had enough!

TAKE ME AWAY FROM MISERY. ANYONE PLEASE?

IT SAYS IT ALL.

很感激 这城市拥挤的交通

让你我 还能多相处几分钟人潮中

怕失散所以轻轻拉你的手

一刻不放松 不放松

忍不住 想要爱你的冲动

不确定你属于我 会有点寂寞

你给的幸福 在我心中自由走动

抚平我每一个伤口

忍不住 想要吻你的冲动

你给的幸福 在我心中自由走动

抚平我每一个伤口

忍不住 想要吻你的冲动

不确定我的执着 能让你感动

我只能相信自己感受 不怕失落

关于你的一切 我想要比谁都懂

我的心 是被你设定的闹钟

提醒我 想你的时间不够用

为什么 平淡的事情现在忽然生动

是你改变我 你改变我

忍不住 想要爱你的冲动

不确定你属于我 会有点寂寞

你给的幸福 在我心中自由走动

抚平我每一个伤口

忍不住 想要吻你的冲动

不确定我的执着 能让你感动

我只能相信自己感受 不怕失落关

于你的一切 我想要比谁都懂

你是情人还是朋友

还没勇气想得太多

你的世界如此辽阔

忍不住 想要爱你的冲动

不确定你属于我 会有点寂寞

你给的幸福 在我心中自由走动

抚平我每一个伤口

忍不住想要吻你的冲动

不确定我的执着 能让你感动

我只能相信自己感受 不怕失落

关于你的一切 我想要比谁都懂

mummy enjoy your trip.

woke up early in the morning at 4.20am. dad and i accompanied mum to the airport. mum is going to macau and some other places. waited for mum tour mates at the airport. the check in for the boarding is kinda long. we waited at the cafe and i was yawning throughout. mum had breakfast before boarding. she shared her breakfast with dad. afraid she will be hungry on board, i bought her muffins. wonder did she eat it. after mum went in, dad and i took the shutter to terminal 2. bused back to ang mo kio. went to pay my bills. it was so expensive, was still wondering how i used my mobile. treated dad brunch. we were so full after eating. had been home since 11 plus slacking till now.

ALL THE BEST EVERYONE. U WILL BE MISSED.

monday morning, was in a hurry to work. i was so late. i doesnt want to be late for my last day. had a tripped and fell against the stairs of the bridge as the shoes is too slippery. had some scratches. reached office at around 8.50am. was 10 mins early. saw eva standing there, she said i walked like an AH LIAN while crossing the road. as my bag was sling and the colour blended with the top im wearing she thought it was my last day i was so carefree without my bag. as usual indulging my darling till 9am on the dot then i went up. had lunch around 1pm. went back to work like a cow as i had to hand over my stuffs and labelled them properly.

after work which was around 6 plus, we went to meet lily for prata before heading to the pub. we had naan, matubak and esther had prata. after dinner we went to the pub located near our workplace. had a game of pool with sharon. SHE WON. i felt so rusty without playing pool for around two years. took pictures with the group of ex colleagues as sharon had to leave. we ordered jugs of beers continuously. eva, esther, irene and lily went to pick some songs and sang for us. about 3 hours had passed, irene seems to be abit drunk. she went around hugging us and she told me some very touching words that make me wanted to cry out. she made me danced with her. esther eva and i went so high, as we cant stop laughing. had been laughing continuously. i sang a couple of songs with esther. the most unforgettable song is PENG YOU, sang with eva and sally. had some photo session with them, we seems like we are either sober or drunk. we have marble cake as our farewell celebration with a candle on it. esther and me were made to blow the candle and drink (bottoms up). i went around feeding them the cake and they ate it without rejecting my offer. eva dared us to eat the piece on her mouth. one of the gals bite it and i accidentally touch eva's lips when biting it. it was so gross but was fun. irene was hugging me and esther giving us her wishings and blessings, and i was shocked when she kissed me on my cheek. after eating they sang us songs for farewell. eva, esther and i had to finished the last two jugs of beer. we are about 80% drunk and 20% sober. we cant walk in a very straight line. while we were waiting for cab, we were shouting and laughing like nobody businesses. took cab back around 2 plus midnight and was charged for midnight charge. i really enjoyed myself last night. I REALLY ENJOYED MY DAYS WITH YOU ALL, FUN LOVING GIRLS! WILL MISS YOU ALL DEARLY! LOVES!

im missing you all lots.

IM DEAD DRUNK WRITING THIS POST!

IS A LONG TIME SINCE UPDATE!

Its been a long time since i update my blog. had changed the link address to another. edited and deleted some posts. might have some difference.

tmr is the last day in the company. WILL MISS THOSE FUN LOVING COLLEAGUES!
have to find a new job to survive. STRESS! i wish to go back to study with my own abilities. but the course fees is so steep. how long do i have to work to go back to my further studies? IS STILL A QUESTION MARK!

so many QUESTIONS MARKS going round my mind. NOTHING SEEMS TO BRING THE ISSUE OUT OF MY MIND!