happy meet up.

im happy today. had a meet up with my buddy buddy, esther and eva. we had mocha frappe at mcCafe. chat chitting session started. eva left after an hour. left with esther and me. both of us chatted almost 3 hours in mac. went for darling session again. im so sorry. (the both of u have to offer me.) walk around amk hub with esther, bought a pair of black pants in giodano which i didnt get it in suntec outlet. shop around looking at formal shirt and bottom. went to fairprice xtra to get hangers as my closet is running out of hangers to hang my tops. had a darling with esther before going back home. thanks esther (for the darling). im so bad, made esther walk to the opposite bus stop(as im walking the same way to another bus stop) and she missed the bus. im sorry.

KEEP IN CONTACT. I WILL MISS YOU BOTH. MEET UP SOON.

THANKS EVA FOR THE TAI YANG BIN AND THE BAG FROM TAIWAN, TAIPEI.

WORK IS SO BORED! CANNOT STAND IT!! SITTING INFRONT OF THE COMPUTER AND TYPE NON STOP, DOING PAPER WORK!!!

THIS IS REALLY THE TIME TO LET GO OF THE UNNECESSARY THOUGHT.

READY TO LET GO?

I HOPE SO.

EMO-ING THE WHOLE DAY.

Tomorrow is the first day of work to a new working environment. hope everything goes well.

i doesnt want any unneccessary thoughts going through my mind anymore. this should be the end of it.

seriously, there isnt any difference. the outcome will still remain the same.

i doesnt want to fall into the same situation again. is TORMENTING.

all those moments will be lost in time, like tears in the rain.

I Cant Let My Heart Have So Much Misery.

NAIVE!

I DOESNT REALLY KNOW WHAT IM DOING! ITS ALREADY OFF WAY TRACK. WHAT AM I DOING? WHAT AM I DOING? WHAT AM I DOING?

IS MAKING ME NUTS. IM SO WRONG! THERE WILL BE NO OUTCOME BUT IM STILL HANGING ON!

I WANT TO GET OUT OF THIS MISERY!

I DONT WANT TO SUPPRESS MYSELF ANYMORE.

I WANT TO LEAVE THIS THING FAR AWAY FROM ME!

I DONT WANT TO HAVE THINGS LINGERING ON ANYMORE. JUST LEAVE ME ALONE. I REALLY CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE. I HATE MY FAKE SMILES, FAKE LAUGHS AND FAKE MOODS.

I REALLY HATE MYSELF BEHAVING THIS WAY!

JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!

ALONE ALONE ALONE!

im really tired. why do i have to go through so much hurdles in order to get something? is this predestined? or is it just to make a fool out of me? i really had enough of it! its turning me nuts!
why cant things remain as the same? why does it have to change? i really dont wish to think about it. im not in a position to make any decision. im SORRY.

MAYBE I MYSELF DOESNT EVEN REALLY KNOWS WHAT I REALLY WANTS.
PHERHAPS SOMEDAYS...

im too persistent on it.

maybe its time to let go. no use holding on if theres no return.

"LETTING GO DOESNT MEANS GIVING UP, ITS MEANS THAT SOMEHOW SOMETHING WERENT MEANT TO BE."

我想我习惯了忽略

去忽略没你的时间

不近不远走在谁身边

我想我适应了一切

原来是我 在爱上你的那瞬间

就困在围墙里面

谁都以为不听不看 也就没感觉

一转身 才发现 空气里面

依旧飘散着记忆的气味

IS KILLING ME! I REALLY DOESNT WISH TO MAKE ANY DECISION! JUST TAKE IT THAT IM SELFISH OR HEARTLESS! IM REALLY SORRY! IM NOT WORTH WAITING!

im feeling exhausted of the walking from raffles place to boat quay to clarke quay then chinatown. but in between had a cup of milk tea from mian le wu. had been thinking alot when im bus-ing back to ang mo kio. the most important thing i need to do is earn more money. to obtain my goal in 3 years or more. WAY TO GO!!! VANESSA POON JIAYI!!!

THANKS GUYS FOR THE WISHES.

was selected after 3 mins of interview. was so happy that i dont need to go for other interviews. strike at the first one. had to sign my contract tomorrow in the afternoon at raffles. lazy to go but still have to force myself to go. as it will be the income for my future studies. finally i can use my own abilities back to studies. but somehow i think i will spent all the salary and without any penny left.

THANKS GUYS FOR THE WISHES. LOVE YOU ALL LOTS.