Wednesday, July 22, 2009

A BIG BLOW TO ME!

baby, im not blaming you, if you happened to read this post. i just find it hard to hear from you that this thing happened to you. you had been trying ways and means to fight through this coming sat, but now is gone. i just cant accept the fact. i had been trying my very best not to think about the days and stuffs and finally this coming sat which i looked forward to so much. now everything has to start from scratch again. another 2 weeks more. which makes up to 1 month and 2 days or might be longer. i need sometime to accept it, im sorry. the first few days was the worst to go through, wasnt feeling well and was struggling too. had my thoughts sort out and was still able to pass through each day. i dont know whether can i still carry on my life like this. its too tormenting for me. others can do it, but not me. everyone has different endurance and tolerance limits. mine has somehow meet the end of point. always stuggling through each day, always acting nonchalant, acting a strong front, im tired, really tired. can i put an end to this?

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