Sunday, July 19, 2009

NOT STRONG ENOUGH.

my mind keep having thoughts with questions from the previous post. i cant help it. you had been a very good listening ears to me. i tell you everything that troubles me and you will even let me vent my frustrations on you without blaming me. i really apreciate it, but my standing now is i cant even tell anyone whats troubling me and my problems. when you called me, we can only talk for about 5 mins the least, and with the things you did the whole day. i cant really tell you anything, stuffing all the things with myself, not letting you worry about me with your tough training inside. friday i really did something very regretful. i actually told you i dont know how long can i endure, your voice changed after hearing that. the text you sent me didnt even mentioned anything regarding that. yesterday, i heard you coughing non stop on the phone and you still want to hang on with your training without letting your officer know, and you told me you will ***. i dont like you saying things like that, nothing will happen. this time is my turn to say, PLEASE BELIEVE ME, EVERYTHING WILL BE FINE. sorry for the words that shouldnt be saying to you, that demoralise you. i realise my mistake, will be waiting and supporting you throughout this road of difficult journey, like how you accompany me through the days when im sick, with you accompanying me to the clinic and hospital. :)

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