since morning, i had been feeling very emotional. doesnt know whether is it due to my outfit. im wearing all black today. cant really concentrate on my work at all. to be frank is not in the mood to work. i feel kind of shagged and my eyes could barely open. lunch was as per usual alone again. i had a weird feeling when i was lunching alone. dont even know why. had a few sticks of darling after lunch before going back. i was the last to leave the office but was the second one to reached. after lunch, was rushing the paperwork like hell. and was reprimanded by my in charge. i hold back my tears and swallowed down for the sake of the money. i only worked for 10 days and you couldnt expect me to know all the things as im still new to this area. i dont think i will extend the contract if you wanted to. i have to sort up my feelings and get back to my feet and life still have to go on.