TOUCHed!

as per usual, same routine everyday. went over to parkview square at around 3.45pm to collect some documents, came back, kinda slack, asked boss to sign my timesheet and faxed over. I CAN ONLY GET MY PAY ON NEXT TUESDAY!. im dying, so broke and got to wait till then.

B, heard from you that you send an email over which you didnt revealed much about it. i saw the email, read the text written on it, opened the attached file and saw the compilation of a video of the two of us. memories kept flowing in and jotted down the tiny little things we did. PARDON MY WILLFULNESS and making you so worried. im not going to say sorry anymore. Thanks for being with me through my hard times. THANKS, LIN ZIHAN.

was so sleepy when i reached office today. feels like didnt slept the whole night though. started my first routine, photocopy enrolment forms, on the computer worked on my reports, done 6 reports in a row before lunch time. lunch in after buying my ba chor mee, had so many days of it since last week. cant even have my lunch properly, on and off phone calls and courier stuffs. done with my daily updating and im so free waiting for the time to pass. finally 5.30pm clocked, kept my things and off i go. saw B sitting at the stairs. i find him very weird, and i forced him to tell me what happened, in the end he said HE IS NOT FEELING WELL. since 2009 started, he fall sick twice. bused back, went to the hawker near my place for dinner. he had porridge and managed to finish. home sweet home, forced him to go back quickly.

ITS THE 5TH MONTH LE. FINALLY GET TO SEE YOUR BAD TEMPER THAT I HAD BEEN LOOKING FORWARD TO, BUT NOT TO ME IS OK. NO MORE VUGLARITIES FROM YOU, WHEN YOU ARE AT THE TOP OF YOUR ANGER. HAPPY HAPPY 5TH MONTH.

yesterday, tasted B's culinary skills, pasta, overall it tastes nice. but B kept commenting not nice not nice. must have confidence in the things you do. left his place around 7pm after having his mum's cooked soup, headed to suntec, had our dinner there. make our way to clarke quay, passed by esplanade as yesterday had the 60 mins earth saving day. everybody lit candles and B said its so romantic and missed having those atmosphere for a long time. bused home.

dreaded going to work. always doing the same routines, daily reports, performances' report, MTD report, internal report, calls report, courier slips plus report, calls, enrolment forms, claims forms and many more. I SERIOULY HATE MONDAY, is already BLUE mood and i had to complete FRIDAY's and SATURDAY's sales REPORT. driving me nuts. i want to learn new things, but some how i cant find time to slot myself into something new. i dont want to let people look down on me as i dont know what kind of insurance plans they are selling, the premium and the benefits. i was once in insurance line but in different selling points and benefits and plans. things are different now, as im only in administrative side not an insurance executive. position wise is different and standing point is different too. im the only admin support other than manager, seems like i cant tell which is good and which is bad, as i dont know is there any hidden agenda in them and turn around i get stab in my back. ITS TORMENTING!

finally i had 12 hours of sleep. but somehow doesnt seems much. yesterday both of us went town, but once we were in bus, pouring rain started. alighted at far east, walking under the heavy drizzle to cineleisure to get our tickets, Paul Blart, Mall Cop. had our dinner over at the kopitiam at B1. went for the show. enjoyable show. made our way to taka, bought korean nian gao. its nice and chewy if the gravy is more spicy and it will be even tastier. drizzling once again.

Tired.

almost everyday i dropped dead on my bed after washing up. workload is increasing. had not been stopping my hands at work. had been typing till my finger get stiff, dont even have the time to go to the washroom. boss will be back tomorrow, hope nothing happens. so many things to update him. worried i will be blamed by boss of hearing the wrong info of giving the leads. is so hard to keep track as everyone come to your seat and say i finish my copy can u give me one brand new piece, others will be saying too biased and give them so many copies as they have not ask for one. there are silence backstabber in the office, which i dont know who and is hard to know, as all are smiling with hidden agenda and you dont know what are they thinking and whats their next step. i work just for one motive which is the salary and i want to get back to my studies as soon as possible. i hate working life, where i will get back aching, stiff neck, lack of sleep and cant leave on the dot. i wish i can survive there for a long term basis and get along well.

Throat Inflammation

my throat is once again inflame. is so painful when i tried to swallow saliva. was not feeling really well. knock off work as usual, not at specific time. B came and pick me again. had pig organ soup again, become our favourite. had twice in day with colleagues and B. bused down to amk hub bought strepsils and darling. sit at viod deck near macdonald's. waited for his friend. B send me home and his friend came along. sorry to made you walk (B's friend). they are going to chalet together. enjoying themselves after their exams. MISSING YOU, LIN ZIHAN.

Friday:

after work, went bugis to have dinner. intially wanted to eat steamboat but end up having seoul garden as there wasnt any more seats in the aircon area. went to the seats assigned by the server, my clothes reeks of seoul smell. didnt eat much and was so full after that. after leaving seoul garden my bag, watch and shawl reeks of seoul smell, especially my hair, its stink. no more seoul for me anymore.

Saturday:

had aijitei for dinner at taka. the food are so tempting with nice desserts. i had my fill after a few mouthful of my set, cant really finish up my dessert. after dinner, met B friends over at cineleisure. trained home around 11.

Surprised.

B had been giving me SURPRISES after my third day of work. firstly, on thursday, my first day at work, he appeared out of nowhere to fetch me. today, he sat at the staircases palying with his phone and i didnt called him and pretended that i didnt saw him. had dinner at amk S11. today work is shagged and dry. theory summary had so much to memorise and reports are tons and tons stacking up. hope i can manage when justin is leaving which is on the friday. :)

Happy.

ITS OUR 4TH MONTH TOGETHER.

NO MORE SICKNESS FROM YOU, B. HAVE TO BE HEALTHY AND AS BIG EATER AS BEFORE.