happy being with you!

meet up with bian bian today. train-ed to dhoby ghuat went Plaza Sing. the first thing i did was i bought takoyaki to fill my stomach as im really hungry at that point of time. it doesnt really tastes as nice as i had bacon and cheese and bian bian took octopus. after that, i was craving for auntie anne's, and we bought for each a cinamon pretzels. i was so full after half of it. went for darling session, and we were talking about what will happened if the banning starts? went to p.o.a and shop for bian bian bottom. doesnt really know whether is it a skinny cut or straight cut, so bian bian decided not to buy. walked over to bugis, pass by bugis street, called bian bian to take a look whether are there any nice bottom. finally he got one. walked around parco and went over to shaw tower. had steamboat located near the entrance. the food wasnt nice. when making payment we felt like kinda cheated, as the poster outside stated was nett price and turn out we had to pay for the GST and SERVICE CHARGE. strolled over to suntec, bought bian bian tiger balm patch as he injured his back and our ROUTINE when we are there would be carrefour. bused back to amk hub. after buying bubble tea, as usual bian bian strolled back home with me.

its our 2nd month, time passes so fast. i really enjoy your company, bian bian. without fail, you would always appear at my past working place waiting for me at the same spot just to have dinner and fetch me home. always accomodating me, fetching me from my place before we go out and never fail to bring me home after going out and never will you leave me alone going back on my own even though you live so far away from me. when im sick, you will accompany me to the doctor and come over to my place and see whether im alright. always will not flare up when i said harsh-ful words hurting you. accompanying me to late night on the phone as im still awake and you only have a few hours of sleep and have to go to work the next day. working just to help me stock up my supper stuffs and tide me through my hard times. DEAR, I REALLY APPRECIATE WHAT YOU DID FOR ME. i will always keep this in mind, that i wont say anymore harsh-ful words and hurt you. LASTLY, HAPPY 2 MONTHS. LOVE YOU. and have your back injury treated fast and we can have more shopping. im just joking for the last few words.

TOUCHed!

BIAN BIAN came over to my place in the afternoon despite his 3 hours of sleep. he was sitting at the couch playing his phone while i prepare myself before 5. we are going to buy our TOTO. we are kinda lost of how to buy it if we wanted to bet on the numbers we wanted. in the end we just bought quick pick. hope this time we will strike no matter how much as long as we can cover the cost we pay for it. went over to the hawker bian bian said he wanted to have some small bites. he intially wanted hokkien prawn noodles but we are going back for dinner, so he just took fried carrot cake. while walking back home, i said i tell my mummy you ate carrot cake then we go back so late. then, he said i tell your mummy you have darling in your bag then you know. i was like argh! back home, while having dinner, i was quite full after finishing half of my portion of rice. then bian bian said i ate carrot cake. nevermind, just this time i will take the rap alrights, bian bian.

after dinner, dad had the teletext on to check his 4D. mum called me out and i checked there is none of it. im so fed up. bian bian said he will try again. went out, on the way walking to amk hub, bian bian told me he is very tired, and i felt abit of worried for him afraid he may faint anytime as he told me that. had our shopping in fairprice and bought alot of TOMYAM cup noodles. had a pearly soya milk and walk back home. bian bian had the scripts of what to say as he wanted to eat the cup noodles. he had to rehearse before going back. bian bian ate his cup noodles and sat with me till 11 plus before going home, this is the second time he left his eyedrops with me again. we are both so forgetful.

p/s: bian bian thanks for doing so much for me. i know you doesnt had much rest the past few days. working, tolerating my nonsense and moodswings, always so forgiving and doesnt flared up even though those harsh-ful words came from me, accompanying till late night and many more to list out. be more careful while working, dont injured yourself anymore. i dont want to see any more bruises on you. LOVE YA.

FED UP!

im so frustated. the number i bet on is out BUT is in a wrong order! im fuming mad now. real mad. if its in right order, $120 will go right into my pocket instantly. if i win it, i will have extra money for lunar new year clothings. im just cant get it off my chest. although i bet $2 but i will still get $118 back on hand, better than nothing. bian bian still can say relax, the number is open but in wrong order, its just one step more. bian bian, i bet so many times this is the first time the number really open but in right order. JUST ONE STEP MORE.

BUFFET!

supposed to meet buddy buddy for lunch. but turnout we changed to another day. she text me around 10.50am and im still in bed. i couldnt make it on time so went to wash up and meet mum. waited for the bus and it came 5 mins later. the bus is so packed, there is not much seat available so i stand at the standing area. the uncle keep moving backwards and i dont even have much space to stand. and the worst is, there is a heavy traffic jam. reached chinatown, meet up with mum and went to queue up for 4D. went back to meet mum again, shopped around and went 天津楼 for buffet. we ordered quite alot of dim sum for the first round, and after we had placed our order for the second time, the server asked us to move our seat upstairs. the waiting time for the food to be served is kinda long. but overall the food is quite tasty and there are alot of variety to choose.

CHRISTMAS!

few hours back, it was CHRISTMAS! bian bian came over to my place and we went orchard to shop for LUNAR NEW YEAR clothings. i bought a dress on tuesday with two belts to go along, so i decided to look around first before getting the second outfit. first, we went far east plaza, showed bian bian what dress i bought, then went to level 3 and spotted a shop selling shirts. i took a plain light blue shirt with very thin strips. asked bian bian to try it. looked nice on him, the first time seeing him wearing shirt and he bought it. shopped around, went heeren and stopped for old chang kee curry puff. walked around there but nothing really caught his attention. strolled down to bugis, went topman, bian bian tried on the skinny pants, he came out and it looked quite weird. its also the first time i see him with skinny, so he decided to walk around first. went to dine in pasta mania, as usual marinara and combo c and bian bian took the same pasta with combo a. the soup bian bian took tasted abit weird as i find it. sipping our drink and talking at the same time, we heard someone from the other table laughing so loudly, we turned over and saw the guy laughing and his hand actions was so funny. i was laughing away non-stop and bian bian kept making funny faces. walked around to get bian bian bermudas as bugis street doesnt have a new piece for it and wanted to try our luck there. but amazingly, its the same. so bian bian decided to take that piece. went into another shop bian bian saw this shirt tried it and bought it. again to the next shop, he took a pink checkered shirt tried and bought it. in total he bought 3 shirts. looked around for bottoms like jeans doesnt really caught his attention. i told him that i saw a jean in LEVI's is quite nice, so we went to take a look there but the outlet doesnt have the series there. walked down to suntec, bought my TOM YAM CUP NOODLES. bused back to amk. as usual bian bian strolled back with me. ate my cup noodles at the same time as bian bian just reach home and cook it. I LOVE SHOPPING WITH MY BIAN BIAN. MORE MORE SHOPPING LIKE THIS AND NOT WATCHING ME SHOP.

Im Sorry!

i have to apologise to my bian bian. hurt him again. im sorry.

went for jog with sis and bian bian came with his aching and sore leg. i felt very touched. went for badminton for about half an hour. dinner-ed at my place unexpectedly. as i put my racket at my door and bian bian had to walk over and asked by mum stay for dinner. he had stomache and i can sense that its a pretty bad one. bian bian ate only rice for dinner didnt really see him taking any dishes. after dinner, bian bian went to look at the trailer of YES MAN, seems quite nice. decided to watch that tomorrow. bian bian went off at around 9 plus. am still loading my show, it doesnt seems moving at all.

IM SORRY BIAN BIAN FOR THOSE HARSH WORDS.

LAZINESS STARTED GROWING.

im so lazy. the previous post was saved in the draft on saturday but i published post on monday itself.

things i did these days.

TUESDAY:
went sentosa early in the morning, but the weather is so cloudy and seems like its going to rain. reached harbour front, looked out and its still the same. tooked the tram over. walked down and called sis to try on the skyride, she said was so-so when she finished. walked over to siloso beach, it was all blocked up and there isnt any places to lay our feet down. went over to palawan beach, had our lunch over kopitiam there. we placed our bags under the shelter as sis found that place. we ran to the other side of the beach and see who will reach first back to the shelter. had our shower and went over to the underwater world and check the prices. it was kinda steep and decided not to go. had our sandwiches and went to harbour front and bused back to amk. went back to amk centre hawker to have dinner. bian bian helped us to queue the satay beehoon, as sis treated us sugar cane drink. home sweet home as bian bian send me home.

WEDNESDAY:

went over bian bian place in the morning, accompanied him to have his lunch at the kopitiam. left at 6 plus to funan for SAKAE SUSHI. we had difficulty finding the place as its seems the same at every level. reached the place, we had dinner buffet and i took the sushi from the belt and started eating as im very hungry. i placed lots of plates of sushi and ended up theres no place for the server to place the food i ordered.

camera shy again.

chewing his wasabi sushi.

drinking my hot tea.

his reaction after swallowing the wasabi he added in his sushi.

THURSDAY :
bian bian came over to my place in the morning, slacked and we cooked our lunch together. we had to stop and continue our noodles as we are very full as i put too much ingredients. went out to the hawker to had claypot rice for dinner. went to amk hub to take a stroll and bian bian bought waffles and clam chowder. walked back.

there is nothing much to do today. :) will update soon.

Happy and will cherish those days.

Friday

THANKS MICA COLLEAGUES FOR THE MEAL AT SWENSENS and Ying Ming for the farewell present.

Saturday

Meet Bian Bian and went over to Bishan. we had KFC there, it was full of flour, made me so bloated after eating. bused to marina square. walked around. went to MUJI bought some stuffs. had taiwan snacks over at suntec. savoured it over at the smoking area near sakae. bused back to amk bought ham and bianbian instant noodles.

Sunday

Went over to bian bian place for dinner. stayed till 10 plus bused home.

Monday

Again to bian bian place, stayed till 5 plus went to have macdonald's. came back to my place to prepare sandwiches, ham and mayo egg for tomorrow's outing, SENTOSA.

had been so lazy to update my post, so i will just make it short. :)

CONFUSED FEELINGS!

TOMORROW WILL BE THE LAST DAY WORKING IN MICA. FEELING KINDA HAPPY AND SAD AT THE SAME TIME. HAPPY WILL BE I WILL BE FREE FROM POLITICS AND SAD WILL BE I WILL BE LEAVING ALL MY NEW FRIENDS. ALL ARE WISHING ME GOOD LUCK FEELS SO SAD LEAVING THERE.

BORED!

today's work was scheduling and calling of candidates. tomorrow will be a busy day. all scheduled in a day. was feeling so hungry the whole day as i could only take plain stuffs.

tired off to bed soon.

SICK!

HAD BEEN TAKING 3 TIMES MC SINCE I WORKED AS TEMP THERE.

yesterday went out with bian bian, but was such a wet blanket. i was feeling unwell and bian bian had to carry all the stuffs, my bag and the umbrella. he accompanied me back home and stay with me till around 10pm. THANKS BIAN BIAN.

i didnt go to work today. was feeling so unwell all because of my cravings. ate too much of food on sunday. but the doctor said it wasnt totally that i ate too much. maybe is my stomach that is weak. medicine i need to take. extra panadol for me as the doctor said it will lead to fever or headache. as i had terrible headache now. Thanks bian bian for coming over again with bread. but i have really no appetite at all. i know u really care for me. THANKS, DEAR.

was sitting in the living room as i noticed the fishing tank, i saw dad's favourite is in such a cute shape. this is the side view of it. cant really take the cute part of it as it swims very fast.

bian bian came so early to my place, and i had not even blow my hair and have my make up done. he sat on the couch and waited so long. left to pay dad's fine. was so blurred as it was the first time to pay by the AXS machine. cant seems to access to pay it. gave up and went for hokkien prawn noodles again. bought fruits and coke back. we went back to the SAM machine this time. we tried clicking on another icon and it works. went for darling session again. went home after that. grandparents were already here when we reached. waited for aunt chella to reach to start the steamboat. it was so cramp as there are additional two persons. ate alittle and went for darling session.

went back home for 2nd round of steam-boating. ate so much till im bloated with food in my stomach. went out for a walk with bian bian. sat in the void deck and bian bian on his songs. i like this song when he sing 就是爱你. the lyrics goes like this, 就是爱你爱着你 有悲有喜 有你 平淡也有了意义 就是爱你爱着你 甜蜜又安心 那种感觉就是你. went back home.






my hands are so itchy, helped bian bian to squeeze his pimples. he was so quiet and calm when he did it. slacked till 11.50pm then he leave lucky there was last bus for him to board back home. cam-whoring under the viod deck.

thanks.

THANKS JOANNE FOR THE LUNCH.

TO FAREWELL ME AND WELCOME MIMA.

treated us today and again on friday. went to MAGIC WOK for lunch today. tried phar tai, the thai noodle. we were just like having meeting venting frustation. went back to office and i was so piss off with her. CANT U SIMPLY DO THE FILING YOURSELF! IS YOUR OWN STUFFS AND YOU ARE PUSHING IT TO SOMEONE ELSE TO DO IT FOR YOU. SO WHAT IF YOU ARE GOING ON LEAVE, IM LEAVING ON FRIDAY AND WONT BE COMING BACK ANYMORE, CANT U LET ME HAVE SOME GOOD IMPRESSION ABOUT THE PLACE OR ENVIRONMENT.

HAPPY!

COUNTING DOWN TO 5 DAYS FROM THE HORRIBLE PLACE WITH SO MUCH POLITICS AND HIDDEN AGENDA.

met up with bian bian tou today. we didnt have dinner. but we ate alot of trash food. the cheese hotdog caught my attention when we passed by the people's park centre. bian bian bought it and he gave a very weird look and said eeeee not nice de. went over to bought the cheese hotdog from the ang moh at the push cart. is so nice. and bian bian said eeeee, i dont like the cheese taste is so heavy and had to eat it with lots of chilli sauce. ended up both cheese hotdog i finished up. sooner or later i will turned into a big fat pig for sure. brought bian bian to the dessert shop i always patronized. we ordered black sesame paste for bian bian as for myself i took almond paste and lastly the pumpkin cake. bian bian had his mouth full of the black sesame paste and his lips are black in colour like was attacked with some kind of poison. bused back and strolled back home.

SHAGGED!

im so tired at work. kept yawning and yawning. had 3 cups of coffee today. doesnt seems to have any effect. went lunch with buddy buddy. finally they didnt ask us to go lunch with them. but they went for 2 hours of lunch. is kinda unfair. had a conversation with manager, all are so indirect sentences. couldnt stand the way they talk. feel kinda sad as im leaving all the friends i know there but am happy as im leaving the hell place. bused back to ang mo kio. had dinner with sis and strolled back on the way brought fruits home. IM SO FULL NOW.

my dinner.

hokkien prawn noodle and satay. cost me 13 bucks.

tired.

was kinda relaxed at work. went lunch-ing in pasta mania with buddy buddy. as usual marinara and combo c. was so full after eating. take our time back to office. time passed so quickly as you have stuffs to do. after work, dear came and pick me with his umbrella. had dinner and walked to chinatown to bus back to ang mo kio. the bus was so freaking cold. the chill up to spine. my lips couldnt stop shivering. picture taken during the journey back.

concentrating on his game again.

game he is playing on his ipod.
cheerful smile.

talking on the phone.

im feeling so sleepy and my eyes hurts alot. kinda like sore eyes, redness. shall end here.

OMG!

took this yesterday. nothing much to do.

dear is SICK! hope the herbal tea will be up to much help. went to aunt chella place and stayed for dinner.

concentrating on his ipod game.

DEAR GET WELL SOON!

happy day.

Camera shy?

this shoes is nice but keep making you fall!.

First picture of the two of us (cam-whoring).

Second.

Third.

Getting paranoid on his phone camera.

holding hands of yours makes me feel blissful.

happy 1 month, dear.

thanks for being there for me.

I LOVE HIM!

tired yet happy.

had been helping out at the event after i stepped into the office. helping out with the last preparation. had been categorized as AUNTIE as it was a children event. buddy buddy child kept sticking to me, holding my hands, sitting on my lap and keot asking me to sing her a song. she so cute and her lashes are so long and curl. after the clearing the event venue, went back to office and clear up some stuffs. had my things signed and knock off for work.

met up with dear after work. went to suntec, before reaching i went to marvellous cream for ice cream. is so nice and i was hyper active after eating. went to food court and had the steam rice set meal. while eating there is a very small cockroach, i wasnt sure about it and dear stood up shoo-ing from side to side just to get rid it. his face is so red. so cute.

why did u move? was a snap shot.

bused back to ang mo kio. see ya in the morning. shall stop here my eyes are closing.

HUH!

my outfit for the day.

i was keeping quiet and dear came a "HUH" 你在跟我说话啊? turn out it was a guy who was talking on the phone and he mistaken it was me talking to him. made me laugh non stop. im tired, thats all for the day.

im so tired the whole day. kept yawning. today did the files stickers again, made enquiries on PIZZA HUT. placed an order for Friday event. i really hate her! checking on what im doing. just simply do your own things. im so VEXED! can all of you just leave me alone. i just want to have a peaceful life. TAKE IT THAT IM HEARTLESS ALRIGHT. FOR THE TIGHT SLAP.

THIS IS THE CVs I PRINTED. THESE ARE ONLY PART OF IT. ANOTHER STACK HAD PASS TO ASSISTANT MANAGER.

tired, doesnt have much things to do at work. was feeling so sleepy. pack the shelf alone today, as buddy buddy had something on. gave me the freaking face again, kept checking what am i doing now. who do u think you are? cant really stand it anymore.

met up with dear after work. i was fooled by him. initially i thought he failed his BTT but he did pass it and conveyed the wrong text to me. we had exactly the same dinner tonight. ate too much, im so full now. went ntuc xtra, stock up stuffs. after payment, he hold all the things and he said something that make me laugh, "MAKE USE OF ME WHILE IM STILL HERE". this phrase was said by the idiotic in charge and he phrased it out. just simply love the smile on you. smile more, dear.

happy happy.

reached workplace at 8.25am. wasnt that willing to go. was kind of piss with the in charge. didnt really have any contact with her in the morning. finally i finished printing all the CVs and sorted them into categories. went out for early lunch with buddy buddy as we have to pack the shelves and have to label them into alphabetical order. is so dusty and i was coughing non stop. out of a sudden, the idiotic in charge came and said we forget to add in some very important details into the reservation list for the interview room. im not the one who booked the room for the particular position interview. she assumed herself as she was the manager, talking with the high mighty tone that piss me off. pushing all the blame to me. if you are so free, then brief buddy buddy more and and not talk big. most importantly, not to talk behind people back. what a good phrase u had made "MAKE USE OF HER WHILE SHE IS STILL HERE". im just a temp staff, dont expect me to be at the beck of your call. lets see if they will still let you go on leave if i quit now. dont try my patience. i would rather get sack than staying there.

meet dear after work. i pretended i didnt saw him while i was on the phone. would like to see whats his reaction. there isnt any from him. went marina square for dinner. walked past mini toons and i remembered the funniest words he said. was laughing non stop. went over to city link. dear bought ice cream from marvellous cream located at B1. its a japanese ice cream. there are alot of choices. make me so undecisive on which one i want as dear wanted me to make a choice. decided on the strawberry flavour mix. it included strawberry, mango, wheat cream and condensed milk. the ice cream needs to be mixed before serving. the lady who served wasnt looked skill on the mixing. the overall presentation of the ice cream wasnt as appealing as the one on the menu. overall it tastes good.

this is the first picture i uploaded in my blog. there will be many more to come ya.

this was taken on friday 21/11/08 at suntec.

yesterday, went cineleisure for the movie BEVERLY HILLS CHIWAWA. its a nice show. its exciting, hilarious and touching. although im afraid of dogs since young, but in the show the dogs are so cute. YOU WILL DEFINITELY FALL IN LOVE WITH CHIWAWA. after the show, went to taka for the LONGCHAMP bag, the colour variety only left with red and brown for the design i wanted. didnt get any in the end. it was kinda crowded in town as there are people taking out their camera or phone to take pictures of the christmas decorations. you cant really walk fast as you will be blocking those people taking the pictures.

IM FEELING USELESS. ALWAYS GIVING YOU TROUBLES AND WORRIED SICK. MY MILLION APOLOGIES, DEAR. IM SORRY.

im sorry.

had burger king for breakfast and lunch. was so piss off in the morning. i was backstabbed by the idiotic in charge. she go on telling people my conduct in the office. she doesnt know that the new staff and me is so buddy buddy. she didnt expect that she will tell me about it. i will just endure for 3 weeks and i will be free from the politics and the suffocating environment. just simply regretted the extension of my contract. deeply regretted. was printing the CVs again. seems like it is never ending. was quite agitated by the system as i clicked on the person name and it came out another person application. took quite a long time to get the correct application.

went to meet dear after work. was feeling bad when i saw him. i somehow had some negligence on him. i kept throwing my temper and doing things that hurt him. i felt that im always in a position that there must be someone to tolerate all this. somehow the person maybe tolerating for once but not forever. its kind of stuck up of me. i must change my temper and attitude.

i just want to say you are always tolerating all my bad points and not getting angry over it. instead you came pacifying me. i really feel bad. IM SO SORRY, DEAR. i will change for the better.

busy day.

had been so busy since the moment i stepped in till off work. cant even take a breather. so much work piling up to me. my table is stacked with so many papers and CVs. going crazy soon. got to repack the shelves files. so troublesome. must repack all of it. tired.

I LOVE MY 性感小翘臀.

u know who you are.

so busy in the afternoon rushing this and that. had been using e-buddy throughout when i switch on my computer in the office. was alone in the office at about 2 and the half hour. so quiet as the whole division went for retreat. im always having late lunch in the whole department. met up with dear after work. tired tired tired. shall stop here.

i was so busy the whole afternoon until 5 pm. the new staff came in and introduced herself the moment she stepped in. i was surprised that we two hit it off. we went to order the pastries and beverage. i briefed her about the recruitment stuffs that i have on hand. overall she is quite a nice person for the first day i met her. went for my lunch at 1.10pm was expected to reach office at 1.45pm. its impossible. i had my darling before my meal. took burger king meal for lunch. was so rushing. i took another darling after the meal. went back office prepare the interview folders for the interview held tomorrow and the day after. went off around 6.10pm. walked to chinatown to get perfume. meet dear at suntec. went to watched the fountain laser show when we reached. it was my first time watching it, seems so country bumpkim. i felt hungry craving for pastamania. im the only pig eating. dear had his dinner and watching me eat again. had been eating so much oily stuff. being FATTER FATTER AND FATTER by days. dear bought the tako balls so weird is tuna flavour. walked around suntec after my meals. bus-ed back to ang mo kio. walked back from the interchange back home. we talked alot while we walked. kinda like a heart-to-heart talk.

WHERE IS MY 性感小翘臀? I LOVE YOU.

took off today, slept till quite late, slack around doing nothing. got to go back to work tomorrow. doesnt know where my seat will be allocate at. the new staff will be taking my place and i will be sitting elsewhere.

bored. bored. bored.

dear, enjoy your dinner.

im so bored.

woke up around 11 plus, washed up and waited for dear. he came to help me with my itunes stuffs. went out around 4 plus, bused to town, walked around. decided to go bugis, but ended up we boarded the bus and we lost our way. i was so confident that the bus will go towards bugis but it didnt went towards that direction. we alighted and took another bus back to bugis. time was wasted walking and the arrival of the bus. went to have dinner at the V8 restaurant. it was my first time there and the food there is nice too. was eating and watching mr bean. is hilarious, he is so much of a joker. strolled down to suntec. bus-ing back home to cut my cake. we reached home at around 10.45 as dad had fallen asleep waiting for us. cut my cake and a slice. dont really like the cake, but really appreciated it. thanks mum.

p/s: dear, thanks for the dinner and i did enjoy my day, your star (java chip). u know what i mean.

thanks friends, for the wishes, love you all lots.

yesterday had a tiring but a wonderful experience. we had an investiture ceremony held somewhere near boat quay. had been rushing attendance list for days. finally it ended. but the whoe process took about 15 mins and our hardwork is more than that. for me is weeks, for my superior are months. theres alot of things to be done before the whole ceremony starts. after the ceremony, we had reception over there. i was talking to assistant manager about some stuffs, and the others are having their refreshments. after the guest had left, they started taking out the packet boxes to pack them. i was so stunned that they actually took the stuffs with every ways and means when there isnt anymore packet boxes left. after packing up, we took the mini bus back. suddenly manager said tomorrow which is today is my birthday and they actualy sang a birthday song for me. was kinda touched. we reached office, all were so shagged but we still had to pack all the stuffs back. i left at around 5.30pm. met up with janice for updates session and some shopping.

IM 20 YEARS OLD TODAY.

KINDA SAD CAUSE ITS 20.

MEANS GETTING OLDER.

woke up so early in the morning, and reached work place 5 mins before 8am. i was barred from the office door i scanned my card so many times to no avail. theres a interview at 9.15am and before that the candidates have to a presentation slide. the first candidate reached earlier than me. i was kind of freaked out. afraid the panel will make a din asking why is it so long and stuffs. luckily all turn out well. rushing my work like an octopus. so many things to finish. and have to allocate the sitting arrangements for the event tomorrow, interview profile, folders and reservation of the interview room, calling the candidates. so many things for me to handle. there a new staff on monday and all these will be in her care. finally not mine any more.

i had no voice. when i try to speak, my voice is so deep and painful. throat inflammation, this is the first time i got it so serious. couldnt even speak and coughing non stop. eat the medicine and turn out better but kept dozing off at work. i nearly land my head on the desk and sleep for awhile. i worked 9 hrs today. to be exact is 10 hours. feeling very tired and shagged. after work, trained back and went to the beauty product shop and got myself a bottle of water essence and sleep mask. just these two alone cost me aorund $70. im blessed that mum is the member there. had 5% VIP discount, better than a nothing. bused back home. took dinner that dad had packed for me. lastly im here posting my blog.

my wishlist for my 20th birthday:
- a nice meal
- new bottle of frangrance (finishing soon)
- tote bag (any brand)
- sharp pointed colour shoes (must be nice)
- more tops and bottoms.

- more accesssories
- kbox (singing)
- meet up with friends (miss you all)

had not been feeling well since last night. had sore throat, giddiness and block nose. woke up around 3am and took the panadol and back to sleep. less than 3 hours of sleep woke up and prepare for work. feeling very shagged and dragged myself to work again. piled up with so many things on my table and im so lost with all the things now.

went to the doctor after work. dear picked me off work and we bused back from clarke quay. on the journey back, there is this old man who on the audio so long that i think the bus driver could hear it too. the old man was standing right infront of us. the music is so damn loud. i thought is was dear music coming out from the headphone. disturb my sleep. the old man still think is very style doing this somehow is those kinda 70s songs. finally he get off the bus, the bus is quiet and back to normal. after we alighted at the hub, we walked so fast as i was afraid the clinic will close when theres no poeple. reached the clinic, so unexpected theres really not much people as today the doctor is not there. there a replacement doctor. i went in she asked me in a very fierce tone, u speak chinese or english, i said sore throat in chinese, she still ask me that question. she is so weird all i can say. dinner at the hawker near my house.

DEAR THANKS FOR ACCOMPANYING ME TO THE DOCTOR, EVEN THOUGH YOU ARE ACHING ALL OVER.

FRIDAY

after work, trained down to kovan to meet up with sharon and esther before going to eva's birthday celebration. met up with sharon first, updating each other happenings. i was feeling quite hungry so i suggested going for some finger food first. shared the tako ball and the vegetable pancake with sharon. ate the stuffs at the hawker and waited for esther there. walked down to eva party venue, we went in and come to realise all are MATURE people there. esther was so funny when people are singing and she imitated them. we are all drinking and talking rubbish there. we pick some songs and sang, but when we are singing theres no one there. eva cut her cake at around 12 plus and the cake was so sinful. one thick slice of chocolate in between.

went back around 1am. got a free ride from sharon friend. thanks ya.

SATURDAY

had a very funny day yestersday. i kept laughing non stop. so hilarious. after leaving my house, we went went to bugis to get the box for my darling. walked past the bridal booth, theres a guy asking 两位要拍结婚专集吗？ i didnt really heard what he said. but when we went to marina square walking pass the bridal shops, theres a lady asking 先生要拍结婚专集吗？ i started laughing non stop as do we looked so old or mature? or do we looked like we have the face of getting married? is the first time i heard people asking like this. went to minitoons to look for phone strap but it wasnt very nice, so i looked around and saw a wallet shaped like a dung. i asked dear u want which colour as there is a dark and light brown. he chose light brown. after leaving minitoons i asked him why he chose that color he said he had the similar colour. i was laughing way too hard as i cant stop myself. i had think too much further, as he clarified and said the skin tone. HE IS SO CUTE. couldnt stop making fun of him. hope you dont mind me teasing u, dear.

我尊守我给的约定。

我会珍惜和你的每一分每一秒。

对不起我的顾虑太多了。

i had been so lazy to blog these days. im so tired of work. workload is increasing. im so messed up with all the things now. im dragging myself to work everyday. had not been having enough sleep these days, even when im on the train to work i could even dozed off while standing. really tired and shagged. left one more week and im free from work. cheers.

meet up with bf these days. we movie, we darling, we dine LOTS OF FAST FOOD. seems like im getting fatter by days and will have my ROUND FACE back. kinda getting sick of fast food. i want nice and delicious food next time and not FAST FOOD ANYMORE.

im so tired at this point of time blogging this post as im waiting for my phone to be fully charged.

having terrible backache. went to kiee kee birthday chalet. had some chats with ex classmates from ITE. all are doing well. glad to see them once in awhile. had too much of darling there. waste $ on one pack again. went off around 12 plus. went pasir ris park. theres alot of stars in the sky. is beautiful. in the vast sky above. sat on the rocks enjoying the breeze and the sounds of the wave. is great to indulge myself in such relaxing place once in a while.

had been knocking into friends these few days on the streets. didnt really talk much just a normal greeting HI.

lunch is quite interesting today. had lunch with assistant director, manager and assistant manager and myself. had quite an oily lunch. after eating, we chatted. the topic was kinda awkward. the theme is "SEX". talking about teenage sex and stuffs. i wasnt talking much, as i dont really know what to say. assistant director shoot me a question. "why are you so quiet?" i answered, i dont know what to say. after that question, i started talking and joined in.

workload is increasing. i had no time so slack. got to rush and finish it.

after work, went bugis to get the pair of shoes i always wanted to get it for quite sometimes. the first reaction i stepped into the shop is disappointment. the display doesnt have the colour i wanted anymore. the second colour to choose only left with one size. no choice got to take the one and only last colour which got the size. its GREEN in colour. i find it kinda hard to match my clothings. should had got it the first time i saw it. regrets.

did i really found the one?

you simply makes my day full with smiles, you simply know what i need, you simply knows what im thinking, u simply care, u simply can sense when im not alright.

its just simply YOU.

since morning, i had been feeling very emotional. doesnt know whether is it due to my outfit. im wearing all black today. cant really concentrate on my work at all. to be frank is not in the mood to work. i feel kind of shagged and my eyes could barely open. lunch was as per usual alone again. i had a weird feeling when i was lunching alone. dont even know why. had a few sticks of darling after lunch before going back. i was the last to leave the office but was the second one to reached. after lunch, was rushing the paperwork like hell. and was reprimanded by my in charge. i hold back my tears and swallowed down for the sake of the money. i only worked for 10 days and you couldnt expect me to know all the things as im still new to this area. i dont think i will extend the contract if you wanted to. i have to sort up my feelings and get back to my feet and life still have to go on.

im sorry to have breakdown this morning. its really pains my heart seeing you. i really cant bear you leaving us. when i see you for the last time, past memories just flashed past me. your cheerfulness, your laughter, your disturbing. i really couldnt do anything only tears rolling down. i hope that you are in good care.

I WILL MISS YOU!

i will try my very best to do what your brother mcvin had told me to.

p/s: aunt chella, uncle matthew and mcvin
YOU ALL HAVE TO BE STRONG AND LIFE HAS TO CARRY ON AS USUAL.
MCRON WILL BE IN GOOD CARE WITH HIS GOD.

i will always cherished the times with you deep in my heart although its only a small chapter in our life. although we only meet each other like special occasions, but we would still asked each other hows life going on and stuffs. you are always so caring and cheerful.

after this incident, i really grew up quite alot. we really have to cherish what we really have in life and not to neglect when the person is already not around.

lastly, i really appreciated my friends around me for the care and concern, but not those sacrastic caring. i really want to thank this person who had been seeing and listening to my nonsense these few days. i really want to thank you for accompanying me through those boring times. really appreciate. thank you.

is really heart broken to see you.

i really thought i could control myself but somehow i cant do it.

maybe what the pastor said is true, you are in good care with your God.

im sorry, but i cant really accept the fact that you are not with us.

is too sudden for me to really accept it.

vividly i seems to recall your laughter. the joy you always never failed to bring to us.

your similing face, your laughter, your disturbing and your caring.

i will never forget.

hope you are doing well in a place safe with your God.

im really touched by the speech from your brother and dad.

they really love you alot.

i really hope they can pull through this and carry on with life.

IN LOVING MEMORY.

I FINALLY HAVE A CLEAR PICTURE WHAT REALLY HAPPENED. THE FUCKER DRIVER HOPE U BETTER HAVE SOME REMORSE AND CONSCIENCE IN WHAT YOU HAVE DONE.

ITS ALL YOUR FUCKING FAULT AND YOU TURN AROUND AND ACCUSED MC(initial) SPEEDING ON THE ROAD. YOU COULD HAVE STOPPED THE LORRY AND GET YOUR FUCKING SELF OUT OF THE LORRY AND HELPED HIM OUT BENEATH THE LORRY. INSTEAD OF DOING THAT, YOU FUCKING IDIOT KEPT DRIVING FOR 5M AND DRAGGED HIM IN BENEATH. DRIVING WITHOUT LICENSE OR YOU ARE MENTALLY MAD YOU FUCKING IDIOT.

I WISH HIS BROTHER COULD GIVE A HARD THRASHING.

OPEN YOUR FUCKING EYES AND SEE WHAT YOU HAD DONE TO A 19 YEARS OLD GUY WITH SO MANY DREAMS THAT HE HAD NOT EVEN FUFILLED YET! I HOPE THE POLICE CAN PUT YOU THE FUCKING DRIVER TO JUSTICE AND SENTENCE YOU IMPRISON FOR LIFETIME. YOU WILL GET YOUR KARMA FOR DOING SUCH AN INCORRIGLBE ACT!

LIFE IS SO UNPREDICTABLE. EVERYTHING HAPPENED SO SUDDEN. I COULDNT BRING MYSELF TO ACCEPT THE FACT.

YOU WILL ALWAYS BE REMEMBERED. I STILL REMEMBERED THOSE DAYS WE USED TO RUN ABOUT, ESPECIALLY BUYING CHOCOLATES AND HAVING LOTS OF FOODS, PLAYING ARCADE AND THE ONE I WILL NOT FORGET THAT WILL BE THE FIRST TIME I WENT TO ESCAPE WITH YOU. YOU TRICKED ME INTO PLAYING THE WET WET WILD. WAS THINKING OF PLAYING THE SHORTER SLIDE. BUT IN THE END WE PLAYED THROUGH BOTH SHORT AND LONG SLIDE. WE HAD SUCH AN ENJOYABLE DAY THERE. ITS SO GOOD TO BE YOUNG AND WE ARE ALWAYS IN OUR PARENTS CARE. AFTER THAT VERY LAST TIME, WE SEEMED TO HAVE DISTANCE FOR QUITE AWHILE. BUT YOU WILL ALWAYS APPROACHED ME AND TALKED TO ME FIRST. THATS HOW WE LINKED OUR WAY BACK. WE ALWAYS TALK ABOUT NONSENSE THINGS AND STUFFS. BUT WE SEEMED LIKE WE FAILED TO DID THOSE THINGS WE SAID. THE LAST TIME I SAW YOU WAS THE BARBECUE PARTY HELD AT YOUR PLACE. YOU NEVER FAILED TO WASTE ANY FOOD AND ALWAYS JOKE AROUND WITH YOUR JOVIAL SMILE. ALWAYS FIND TOPICS TO TALK TO EVERYONE AND MAKE EVERYONE SMILE.

YOU NEVER FAILED TO HELP ME HIDE MY SECRETS. YOU WILL ALWAYS KEEP MY SECRET WITH YOURSELF. THANKS. I DONT KNOW WHY IM SO EMOTIONAL EVEN WRITING THIS POST MY TEARS SEEMS UNCONTROLLABLE ROLLING DOWN. I JUST WANT TO LET YOU KNOW YOU WILL ALWAYS BE REMEMBERED.

MY DEAR COUSIN, WHO I CAN TALK TO WITH LOTS OF NONSENSE STUFFS.

15 OCTOBER 2008

IN LOVING MEMORY

MCRON LOW

im on mc today. couldnt get to sleep or get some rest. the heavy rain woke me up first, follow up with the non stop drilling, then my office called. had to go back to work no matter how sick am i.

i really dont understand what i myself is doing.

simply dont.

i had decided to forget you.

but im like lingering on and on.

my mind had been flashing through scenes when we were outside hilton haggen daz.

can i be more heartless and get on with it?

you had it put up so clearly and im still holding on.

i feel like a COMPLETE HOPELESS IDIOT FAILURE ASS.

you will not look back and maybe im still putting some hope onto it.

just forget it and get on with life.

VANESSA, U CAN DO IT!

im so sick the whole day. fever and bad flu. wasnt concentrating on my work at all. keep blowing and pinching my nose. after lunching alone again, went to run an errand for asst manager. went under the hot sun looking for health promotion board at outram. the place is so hard to find. the things are so heavy and i took a train back. back in the office, i felt my body burning. my forehead is burning hot. i was feeling so uncomfortable as the aircon is so strong and i had to endure 2 more hours to knock off. on the way back home, i saw my ex-colleague from G2000 taking the same bus. chatted with her on the way back on bus. surprised to see her on the same bus.

im really very tired of all things.

just want to lead my life as carefree as it is.

i will turn love into hatred.

i will use all my might to hate you, just you.

today, reached working place had darling, saw my director. i was so shocked and unlucky. work is as per normal, boring. went lunch with both asst manager with both the same name but different department. they started talking about kids which is not my topic. kept silent listening to their conversation. we had burmurese food for lunch. the set lunch is so worth. will try it again next time. after lunch had a kinda long chat with asst manager. told her about my previous job experience and stuffs. her advise was good. hope to dine lunch with her more often. went off at 6.05pm, saw director again and with my darling on. im so unlucky. reached ang mo kio around 6.40pm. went to get my shampoo. walked down to ang mo kio hub. saw a fight going on outside macdonald. I WAS SO KIND OF IDIOT. walk in between the fight and no one dares to walk over. im the damn idiot one who dares to walk over. bought fries and apple pies home. bused home and the journey was long.

tears seems uncontrollable rolling down my cheeks when im listening my ipod songs. i really hate myself behaving like that. just simply hate it.

i have to be strong in all ways.

i have to deal with all hurdles alone.

i have decided to do it this way.

sorry, for being so childish in a way to stop all unneccessary thoughts.

i have to let it go slowly, to prevent my heart with so much misery.

i really wish i could stop all misery.

maybe its all a mistake right from the start.

maybe somehow if i cant let go, i will pretend nothing happened.

seriously i have been holding on to a non predestined for too long.

what really meant to be mine will eventually be mine.

theres no use lingering on if it isnt meant to be yours.

but maybe its only my part of wishful thinking.

I HAVE TO BE STRONG AND TEARS NO MORE!

just a simple text from you, makes me smile throughout the day even though how hard my day is.

just a smile from you, makes my heart melts.

just a simple care from you, makes me feel blissful.

there wont be anymore of it from you ever again i supposed.

i will smile through even though theres no text from you.

i will keep your smile deep beneath my heart.

i will feel blissful when you are in good care.

finding back my smile no matter how hard it is.

can time be pass faster. i really cant take anymore. please.

i really can sense the feeling once again.

getting used again. stand in.

is totally understandable.

i understand. truely understand. absolutely understandable.

so its time ?

i really hate the feeling of getting used.

please dont tell me anymore of it.

just simply leave me alone and forget it completely and start my life afresh.

i admit i still have ******* but i dont seems to sense it anymore.

MY LIFE IS SO MESSED UP!

I DONT REALLY KNOW WHAT TO DO?

I REALLY HAVE TO GIVE UP ALOT OF THINGS!

MUST IT REALLY BE LIKE THIS!

WHY IS IT ALWAYS MAKING FUN OF ME!

I HAD ENOUGH OF IT.

JUST SIMPLY STOP IT.

YOU! YOU! AND YOU!

im down! what can i do? i dread going to work. workload is increasing, no contact with colleagues, always alone. its so frustating. i kept dozing off as the routine for the tasks is always the same. i still have about a month more to complete the contract. and it ends one day before my 20th birthday. wish that time can pass faster.

my mind had been flashing through lots of thoughts when im on the way to work. it seems like somehow somethings werent that easy though. someone's happy, someone's sad. im the sad one here. u were given a chance, but do i ? none for me. i was thinking although it wasnt meant to be, but somehow i wish i maybe given a chance. i knew there wont be having "again" in my world.

im sick.

had been feeling kind of moody when im getting my feet up to work. couldnt sleep the whole night through. feeling very tired when im on my way to work. reached office, started with my documents and faced the monitor for 4 hrs continously. the aircon is so cold and had made me sneezed non stop. after lunching with xiaohui, im down with flu and i cant stop sneezing. gastric acted up once again. had been feeling very restless at work after lunch. i left at around 6.15pm went over to boat quay and had drinks and spent almost 40 bucks there alone.

happy meet up.

im happy today. had a meet up with my buddy buddy, esther and eva. we had mocha frappe at mcCafe. chat chitting session started. eva left after an hour. left with esther and me. both of us chatted almost 3 hours in mac. went for darling session again. im so sorry. (the both of u have to offer me.) walk around amk hub with esther, bought a pair of black pants in giodano which i didnt get it in suntec outlet. shop around looking at formal shirt and bottom. went to fairprice xtra to get hangers as my closet is running out of hangers to hang my tops. had a darling with esther before going back home. thanks esther (for the darling). im so bad, made esther walk to the opposite bus stop(as im walking the same way to another bus stop) and she missed the bus. im sorry.

KEEP IN CONTACT. I WILL MISS YOU BOTH. MEET UP SOON.

THANKS EVA FOR THE TAI YANG BIN AND THE BAG FROM TAIWAN, TAIPEI.

WORK IS SO BORED! CANNOT STAND IT!! SITTING INFRONT OF THE COMPUTER AND TYPE NON STOP, DOING PAPER WORK!!!

THIS IS REALLY THE TIME TO LET GO OF THE UNNECESSARY THOUGHT.

READY TO LET GO?

I HOPE SO.

EMO-ING THE WHOLE DAY.

Tomorrow is the first day of work to a new working environment. hope everything goes well.

i doesnt want any unneccessary thoughts going through my mind anymore. this should be the end of it.

seriously, there isnt any difference. the outcome will still remain the same.

i doesnt want to fall into the same situation again. is TORMENTING.

all those moments will be lost in time, like tears in the rain.

I Cant Let My Heart Have So Much Misery.

NAIVE!

I DOESNT REALLY KNOW WHAT IM DOING! ITS ALREADY OFF WAY TRACK. WHAT AM I DOING? WHAT AM I DOING? WHAT AM I DOING?

IS MAKING ME NUTS. IM SO WRONG! THERE WILL BE NO OUTCOME BUT IM STILL HANGING ON!

I WANT TO GET OUT OF THIS MISERY!

I DONT WANT TO SUPPRESS MYSELF ANYMORE.

I WANT TO LEAVE THIS THING FAR AWAY FROM ME!

I DONT WANT TO HAVE THINGS LINGERING ON ANYMORE. JUST LEAVE ME ALONE. I REALLY CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE. I HATE MY FAKE SMILES, FAKE LAUGHS AND FAKE MOODS.

I REALLY HATE MYSELF BEHAVING THIS WAY!

JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!

ALONE ALONE ALONE!

im really tired. why do i have to go through so much hurdles in order to get something? is this predestined? or is it just to make a fool out of me? i really had enough of it! its turning me nuts!
why cant things remain as the same? why does it have to change? i really dont wish to think about it. im not in a position to make any decision. im SORRY.

MAYBE I MYSELF DOESNT EVEN REALLY KNOWS WHAT I REALLY WANTS.
PHERHAPS SOMEDAYS...

im too persistent on it.

maybe its time to let go. no use holding on if theres no return.

"LETTING GO DOESNT MEANS GIVING UP, ITS MEANS THAT SOMEHOW SOMETHING WERENT MEANT TO BE."

我想我习惯了忽略

去忽略没你的时间

不近不远走在谁身边

我想我适应了一切

原来是我 在爱上你的那瞬间

就困在围墙里面

谁都以为不听不看 也就没感觉

一转身 才发现 空气里面

依旧飘散着记忆的气味

IS KILLING ME! I REALLY DOESNT WISH TO MAKE ANY DECISION! JUST TAKE IT THAT IM SELFISH OR HEARTLESS! IM REALLY SORRY! IM NOT WORTH WAITING!

im feeling exhausted of the walking from raffles place to boat quay to clarke quay then chinatown. but in between had a cup of milk tea from mian le wu. had been thinking alot when im bus-ing back to ang mo kio. the most important thing i need to do is earn more money. to obtain my goal in 3 years or more. WAY TO GO!!! VANESSA POON JIAYI!!!

THANKS GUYS FOR THE WISHES.

was selected after 3 mins of interview. was so happy that i dont need to go for other interviews. strike at the first one. had to sign my contract tomorrow in the afternoon at raffles. lazy to go but still have to force myself to go. as it will be the income for my future studies. finally i can use my own abilities back to studies. but somehow i think i will spent all the salary and without any penny left.

THANKS GUYS FOR THE WISHES. LOVE YOU ALL LOTS.

woke up around 6 plus this morning. mum is back from her trip. the first thing she showed me was the LV wallet. i was so angry because she didnt buy the one i wanted. but the wallet wasnt for me. kinda down. preparing to go for my interview at raffles place. went out at around 10am and reached the place at around 10.50am. had to write down my particulars and waited for the interview. the interview ended faster than expected. had received lots of calls asking for an interview. tomorrow have to go to HILL STREET for an interview. doesnt even know where the place is. the interview is scheduled at 4pm. is so late. i hate interview scheduled at such timing. thursday interview is a better one, is located at ang mo kio. is kinda near to my house. interview is scheduled at 9am. is better and i can slack after the interview as i have to start work in october if possible i am employed. came home around 5 plus mum said that i can have the LV wallet. is better than nothing, although compared to the one i always wanted. these few days had been feeling nausea when i see food. dont even know what happened to me either.

i wish i can have my memories erased! i dont want my mind to flash through images that i dont want to. is so MADDENING! i simply hate it. or can someone brainwash me so that i wont feel so miserable. SOMEONE HELP!

GOOD LUCK FOR MY INTERVIEW TOMORROW!

lost and empty.

had been feeling empty and lost since morning. seems like a wandering soul. i really doesnt know what to do. with my LIFE and FUTURE. i dont see much future from here. had been struggling for days what to do. but somehow i dont seems to find an answer. life had been quite meaningless to me since months ago. cant seems to find a goal in life. had been job hopping here and there. i really doesnt know what should i be doing WORKING or STUDYING? study needs money, money comes from the income of working. is so VEXED! im turning NUTS sooner or later. cant really find someone to pour my problems to. can only pour my problems to this BLOG!

LOST AND EMPTY!

had been informed to go for an interview tomorrow at raffles place. i seems to have lazy bones growing in me just a few days of slacking. when i was on the phone with the person asking me to go for an interview, i had been pushing away and giving excuses to start on OCTOBER. i really dont know whats got into me. just feeling kind of laziness in me.

terrible gastric ever.

having terrible gastric ever. is so freaking painful. cant really endure with the pain anymore. wish i can open up and take away the pain.

GASTRIC GET AWAY FROM ME!

yesterday, went bishan with sis. the first thing i did was went into G2000. i saw a pink label dress on the manequin placed at the front of the glass panel. i went to look at the display piece. although its a simple cut dress and it caught my attention. i was thinking of getting it straight away as sis said its kinda troublesome to bring the dress walking here and there as we were there for lunch buffet at sakae. went dining in sakae, didnt really ate much though. was there chatting instead of eating. went off after an hour. went back to G2ooo for the dress. the price was $89. it was quite expensive. went to try it on, the size i wanted had no more stocks. took a size bigger instead. walked around and went indulging my darling. half way through received eva call, after i hung up i saw my elbow had drops of stains like soya sauce. it was so gross. i was screaming and wailing there. luckily there isnt many people. sis wiped it off while i checked my shirt and bag. the most frustrated part was the drops stained my hair and shirt too. it was so sticky and had dripped out of nowhere. trained back to amk meet up with eva. walked around and had our darlings. it was a nice one. bused home.

woke up at 6.15am went for morning jog. have been a long time since i went for a jog after the incident. had two rounds, i felt kinda out of breath and running out of stamina. is it the cause of indulging too much of drinks and darling? i think it should be the case. took a nap after washing up. after waking up from two hours of sleep, having terrible headache and gastric. HOW CAN I GO OUT IN THIS STATE? supposed to go to two invites. the only thing i can do now is STAY AT HOME AND ROT! SORRY JIAWEI AND JUNWEI!

feeling kinda down at this point writing this post. past memories flashed through my mind. keep suppressing myself not to think anything about it, but somehow i could not do it. i wished to bury the happy memories deep in my heart, but i still cant really bring myself to do it. why is there so many ups and down since 2008 started? nothing seems to be going smoothly for me! i had enough!

TAKE ME AWAY FROM MISERY. ANYONE PLEASE?

IT SAYS IT ALL.

很感激 这城市拥挤的交通

让你我 还能多相处几分钟人潮中

怕失散所以轻轻拉你的手

一刻不放松 不放松

忍不住 想要爱你的冲动

不确定你属于我 会有点寂寞

你给的幸福 在我心中自由走动

抚平我每一个伤口

忍不住 想要吻你的冲动

你给的幸福 在我心中自由走动

抚平我每一个伤口

忍不住 想要吻你的冲动

不确定我的执着 能让你感动

我只能相信自己感受 不怕失落

关于你的一切 我想要比谁都懂

我的心 是被你设定的闹钟

提醒我 想你的时间不够用

为什么 平淡的事情现在忽然生动

是你改变我 你改变我

忍不住 想要爱你的冲动

不确定你属于我 会有点寂寞

你给的幸福 在我心中自由走动

抚平我每一个伤口

忍不住 想要吻你的冲动

不确定我的执着 能让你感动

我只能相信自己感受 不怕失落关

于你的一切 我想要比谁都懂

你是情人还是朋友

还没勇气想得太多

你的世界如此辽阔

忍不住 想要爱你的冲动

不确定你属于我 会有点寂寞

你给的幸福 在我心中自由走动

抚平我每一个伤口

忍不住想要吻你的冲动

不确定我的执着 能让你感动

我只能相信自己感受 不怕失落

关于你的一切 我想要比谁都懂

mummy enjoy your trip.

woke up early in the morning at 4.20am. dad and i accompanied mum to the airport. mum is going to macau and some other places. waited for mum tour mates at the airport. the check in for the boarding is kinda long. we waited at the cafe and i was yawning throughout. mum had breakfast before boarding. she shared her breakfast with dad. afraid she will be hungry on board, i bought her muffins. wonder did she eat it. after mum went in, dad and i took the shutter to terminal 2. bused back to ang mo kio. went to pay my bills. it was so expensive, was still wondering how i used my mobile. treated dad brunch. we were so full after eating. had been home since 11 plus slacking till now.

ALL THE BEST EVERYONE. U WILL BE MISSED.

monday morning, was in a hurry to work. i was so late. i doesnt want to be late for my last day. had a tripped and fell against the stairs of the bridge as the shoes is too slippery. had some scratches. reached office at around 8.50am. was 10 mins early. saw eva standing there, she said i walked like an AH LIAN while crossing the road. as my bag was sling and the colour blended with the top im wearing she thought it was my last day i was so carefree without my bag. as usual indulging my darling till 9am on the dot then i went up. had lunch around 1pm. went back to work like a cow as i had to hand over my stuffs and labelled them properly.

after work which was around 6 plus, we went to meet lily for prata before heading to the pub. we had naan, matubak and esther had prata. after dinner we went to the pub located near our workplace. had a game of pool with sharon. SHE WON. i felt so rusty without playing pool for around two years. took pictures with the group of ex colleagues as sharon had to leave. we ordered jugs of beers continuously. eva, esther, irene and lily went to pick some songs and sang for us. about 3 hours had passed, irene seems to be abit drunk. she went around hugging us and she told me some very touching words that make me wanted to cry out. she made me danced with her. esther eva and i went so high, as we cant stop laughing. had been laughing continuously. i sang a couple of songs with esther. the most unforgettable song is PENG YOU, sang with eva and sally. had some photo session with them, we seems like we are either sober or drunk. we have marble cake as our farewell celebration with a candle on it. esther and me were made to blow the candle and drink (bottoms up). i went around feeding them the cake and they ate it without rejecting my offer. eva dared us to eat the piece on her mouth. one of the gals bite it and i accidentally touch eva's lips when biting it. it was so gross but was fun. irene was hugging me and esther giving us her wishings and blessings, and i was shocked when she kissed me on my cheek. after eating they sang us songs for farewell. eva, esther and i had to finished the last two jugs of beer. we are about 80% drunk and 20% sober. we cant walk in a very straight line. while we were waiting for cab, we were shouting and laughing like nobody businesses. took cab back around 2 plus midnight and was charged for midnight charge. i really enjoyed myself last night. I REALLY ENJOYED MY DAYS WITH YOU ALL, FUN LOVING GIRLS! WILL MISS YOU ALL DEARLY! LOVES!

im missing you all lots.

IM DEAD DRUNK WRITING THIS POST!

IS A LONG TIME SINCE UPDATE!

Its been a long time since i update my blog. had changed the link address to another. edited and deleted some posts. might have some difference.

tmr is the last day in the company. WILL MISS THOSE FUN LOVING COLLEAGUES!
have to find a new job to survive. STRESS! i wish to go back to study with my own abilities. but the course fees is so steep. how long do i have to work to go back to my further studies? IS STILL A QUESTION MARK!

so many QUESTIONS MARKS going round my mind. NOTHING SEEMS TO BRING THE ISSUE OUT OF MY MIND!

had been searching for jobs online for about half a day. sent resumes over and one company called and arranged for an interview. i wanted to change it to wednesday because the interview is arranged at 4pm in the afternoon. was kinda late though.

i feel like im wasting my time in my life. there are things that i do that i dont even enjoy doing. is like forcing myself to complete the task. IS THIS LIFE? i had not enjoy enough of student life! hais. maybe this is the fate of my life.

IM FEELING SO STRESS! JOB!JOB!JOB! IS MAKING ME CRAZY! cant i find a job with good salary and near working place? with nice colleagues and without HIGH politics WORKING ENVIRONMENT? STRESS! STRESS! STRESS!

today is my off day. had about 11 hours plus of sleep. but was still feeling kind of tired. tomorrow working schedule is 6-10, whereas wednesday working hour is changed from 5-10 to 10-3. im feeling very tired of the job as sales coordinator. although the working hours is long somedays, but there is 3 days off per week. paywise is too little. always used up my pay within 2 weeks after receiving it. I WISH I CAN GO BACK TO MY STUDIES AND BACK AS A STUDENT. working life is so much boring and lifeless.

I CANT STAND IT ANYMORE. kinda had been having stomache almost everyday. was feeling so uncomfortable during working hours.

why is there always a bunch of customers or a couple of customers coming at the same time? or why is there always during certain time there is no customers at all? is making me so confused!

i have two days off. thursday and friday, im on morning shift. is so sleepy. dont seems to have enough sleep. feeling my eyelids so heavy, is telling me to go to bed and rest early.

shall end here.

having bad flu and block nose AGAIN! feeling abit feverish due to the flu and sore throat.
im on shift on monday! SUPPOSE to be on OFF DAY! hope that my flu will get well on MONDAY. have to work five days in a row to get three off days. will really wish that time will pass with MORE MORE MORE SALES. time will be kind of draggy if there is nothing to do.

IM HAPPY TODAY!

IM HAPPY.
BUSY WITH WORK.
STRESSED UP.

today went for interview, was screwed up. i had enquired on the wrong position. is was so embarrassing. maybe i not intending to take up the job. met up with mum, aunt margaret and phyllis. we had lunch in mos burger. the first time mum said she is fine with fast food and enjoyed it. walked around imm and the sisters bought quite alot of things. after that we trained back to amk. went amk hub and mum brought food for tomorrow breakfast. went to sony ericsson and saw a palm phone and it looked nice too. the model is P1i. i would like to buy it if i get a job. and i want the organiser in the phone. LET ME GET A JOB WITHOUT HIGH POLITICS AND THERE WILL BE SOME OF MY AGE. am i ASKING for too much?