swollen feet

the swollen feet started 3 days ago with a small mosquito bite size. yesterday, it became very swollen and itchy, cant even wear my shoes or slip on heels. wore slipper to work and wear super causal. went to main office with the attire makes me feel so awkward with so many people wearing formal wear. talked to my brother there told him to fasten up the documents and i can leave there as soon as poosible. he asked me to lunch with him at bugis, but i still have alot of stuffs not complete yet, i cant decide, in the end he called me to go back and eat with my colleagues. on the way out, the sky became very dark, when i reached the bus stop it started pouring so heavily, i didnt brought any umbrella along. when i got in the bus, i was thinking how to walk back to office without shelter, pass through lavender and its not raining at all. i alighted and wanted to pack my lunch back, started pouring again. no choice got to wait for the rain to stop at the bus stop, called all my colleagues no one picked up my call, luckily theres one colleague she came out and saw me sitting there and wave the umbrella up and fetch me with an umbrella and went to pack lunch back. left workplace at 5.15pm, LZH came and fetch me and accompany me to the doctor. the doctor was a replacement. i talked to him he didnt even answered me and keep writing the medicine to give me and didnt tell me which food should i abstain from and how do i apply the cream. after the consultantion, we had chicken rice which i love alot and the queue is so long. after eating, ate guava bought by LZH. he will always buy that whenever he come over to fetch me. my feet is so painful and itchy, i kept scratching him as i cant scratch on the affected area. THANKS, LZH ONCE AGAIN. :)

the first time with so many medicine and i had to eat and with drowsiness content. :(

heartbroken

yesterday night and morning, LZH and myself really had a hard time. keep thinking of those unneccessary. total breakdown in the office, everyone is looking at me with my swollen eyes. cant concentrate in my work at all. after work, LZH came to fetch me, ordered pig organ soup for me only as i didnt had my lunch. talked things out, bused back to amk, B bought stuffs for me to bring to work to snack as i always tell him im hungry. sat at viod deck, clear the air and everything is back to normal. i doesnt want things like this to happen again. my heart really broke into tiny pieces like a piece of glass.

DECISION HAD TO BE MADE

had difficulty breathing wearing the belt when eating, but after sometimes is not that tormenting. :)

had been thinking alot, should i let go or hold on? someone please give me an answer to the question in my heart. :'(

Laziness and Stress

had not been updating my blog due to tiredness and stress. work related! but im happy and sad that LZH let me vent all my frustation on him without throwing his temper back to me. feeling regretful always saying things on the top of anger without thinking of his feelings, always place myself in the first place. im not that great being his gf! trying my very best to supress my stress to the minimum level.

LZH treat me ajitei yesterday, both of us ordered the paper hotpot, mine is kimuchi pork and B's spicy clam and B ordered one side dish but im not that sure whats its named, but its nice. went over to watsons to get my things and B saw the eye therapy equip, gave it a try and bought it, while i was standing there waiting for him in the end i brought one pair of socks for my mum that give circulations to the feet and lessen the pain and i bought the belt that goes round the waist to support my back to prevent from spraining again and at the same time i can shape my waist. :)

HAPPINESS

its been 6 months 2 days. ups and down during that period of time. had not been meeting much these couple of weeks as the both of us were working. B still will drop by my place during weekdays. yesterday went to his place, then over to Tampines mall, initially was to have Pizza Hut's for dinner, the queue was so long and decided to change others instead. have Fish and Co, ordered so much till we had to cancel our order for the dessert. my Hot Fudge with Ice Cream. make our way to Tampines 1, spacious and lots of people. went to the shop selling Japanese causal wear. its quite normal, i thought i could find something nice there but none. B bought a Red polo shirt. nothing much and we bused back to amk hub and sat over at the viod deck for drinks then home sweet home for me, while LZH went punggol.